Better words need be said . For this is not bliss but and awaking from a dormant ignorance once again. This may be the return of my mood swings, and believably cynical  thoughts. Amongst these emerges a breath of truth. An enlightenment of the mind. This regards why I long further still for meaning purpose and usefulness. As silly as it may seem, not so long ago I helped everyone, I gave & I gave , when I was done I gave some more. Maybe this is an arrogant thought to rest upon, or merely filled with bias. I never take what I need, It seems I help so many but cannot help myself. I remember once a friend said to me ” Mik you are so different from other guys. I don’t trust them with my purse, I trust you with my life.” How true this may be is beyond words depicting irrelevancy. The problem was I don’t say no.  Maybe so I bring upon so much pain to myself I don’t need others to do it for me.  I’ve come to accept in my life so far, nothing worth holding to has ever worked as desired. My hopes,aspirations & even sometimes needs fallen victim to what I guess is kindness. I don’t want to blog in mystery like so many others, complexity is great, but simplicity is always better. I need someone to see through this, and understand that I don’t ever want to be left, I often wonder what my last thought on this earth will be. A unhealthy thought to have none the less. I Like to think that somewhere in there, lies every girl I have ever kissed , every friend I ever made. May I be so lucky just like you, to see a happy ending, not riches, but wisdom, most importantly Love & Peace. I hope that before my time does end, I have someone i can love , friends that have never once left my side, And a story that someone knows.

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