And the truth be told

I’ve recently discovered what is wrong why i am sad , why i feel pain. Whats worse is im told nothing will change it.  I see all these happy people walking by me lughing giggling at nothing at all. All that comes to mind is how are they so happy and how am i not so. It’s cause these people dont think of anything big in life. They sit by and let life lead them.  They are average people. I on the other hand have been told i have a  psychological age of over 30.  So what does this mean. It means my thoughts and emotions and even intrests are the same as someone over thrity yearsof age. This is nothing but a problem im still in school. It’s just made my life hell and im not the only one. No one will get that i hate making small talk about how some bogan kicked ten goals on the weekend.  The sadets thing is no one gets how i feel inside, they only think they do.  Imagine a world where people fee threatened by your conversations or thoughts. The other thing i have been told and these things have been said by professionals , is that i am heavily right brained. This apprently means i love creativity, and its true .  But now days the arts is controlled by idiots , to be marketed to idiots. Music isnt music anymore its about sales , art is about how people will only comment on its beauty when your dead. Music died with the sixties. But more than that The world of where money was nothing and love was everything is gone. it’s gone only to be heard about and marveled over. With no one to really understand me , the world is a cold place.

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